Waves

You loved me in Ways my heart craved

lifted me up and helped me out of the hole I dug myself in

Was it the absence of love that drew me in? Or your lack of persona that allowed me to use you for my own fantasies?

I could’ve loved you with a burning heart

I could’ve been like the clouds we spent hours watching

you could shape me into whoever you wanted and I wouldn’t even had minded

Just like a cloud, I was nothing but mist to you.

Used your imagination to make me what satisfied you at the time.

Big beautiful giant completely enslaved by your entertainment

I would’ve given you all parts of me

Hell, even after you left

I would still submit to you

You push and pull like the tides of the waves I was born in

You feel like home, but a home I want to escape

Like a trouble child’s home

Chaotic filled with confusion and two people playing fools for each other’s hearts

I want to escape you

I want to forget this love

And not being able to release this abundance of love

Kills me

It kills me to be next to you and feel the absence of your body against mine

To remember the ghost of your kiss

To ignore all the exchanges of promises

But I’m a stranger to you now

And I Can’t seem to preserve your presence anymore

You slip away into someone else’s arms

my heart grows cold and Grieves a love I never had

I’ll never truly know if she loves me

I will never know if her body burns by the thought of me

I won’t know if she misses me still

Or if she ever did

I want to escape you

Be freed from the memories of happier times

I want to escape you

Drive off the roads You loved to drive past

Drive fast enough not to remember your smile And your laugh

I want to escape you

Even if the roads never stop reflecting you

Free me from your ghost

I’m tired of you telling me you’ll try harder but turn and continue treating me like shit

Can’t have shit for myself.

halfhardtorock:

:\/ !!!!

They’re dating <3

yourheartinyourmouth:

no-this-is-ryan:

no-this-is-ryan:

I hate how so many people in the grunge scene are so gatekeepy with clothes. Like bro. Kurt Cobain literally just wore whatever

“You need to dress a certain way to be punk/grunge”

Literally Nirvana:

The whole point of grunge was to BE GRUNGY. Grunge means wearing whatever hideous shit you found in the thrift store or at the charity drive. If you’re buying clothes new or with fashion in mind, you’re doing it wrong. 🤷‍♀️

06 10 2021

1340

It’s been hard for months now, but recently every day is heavier. I lost all self respect the second I started begging for love and attention.

I hate the way my body feels, I feel like I’m trapped in a cage made out of water. I’m suffocating and I feel claustrophobic.. I’ve always felt this way but ever since I made myself smaller for you I noticed how big I was. I hate my arms, and my legs.. hate the way the clothes hugs my rolls. Hate my uneven smile and small teeth. My cheeks, and my hair. I hate my bit down nails.

I hate who I see in the mirror, I hate who I am in my head. But that person has become louder and louder. Sounds like murder in my brain.

I want to rid myself of who I am, I want to stop feeling this way. I want to stop being so damn needy for love

I need to learn how to be alone even when I’m not.

No one is ever going to be there for me the way i am for others.. and even then people still don’t think my friendship and support is enough.. empty conversations left and right screaming in my face that ur love is no longer there

I just want to be enough for someone..

I will never be the first option, I’ll always be the comfortable decision, the play it safe decision..

I’ll never be pretty enough or skinny enough or funny enough

So I puke my soul out and leave it all there..

I have nothing left to fight for, no future in sight, only thing that’s left are the happy memories we’ve had that are now on the rear sight mirror. Will never have it back, will never have them back, will never have your child like love back.

I ruined all of our plans, I’m sorry for blaming it on us.

You can see yourself without me now, and I can see my life without me in it as well..

I’ve lost grip and now I’m just floating.

Catching a grip isn’t an option anymore. I’m just waiting for these three months in hope that someone meets me at the bottom of my fall.

But there’s no one there.

I’m all alone.

recoiloperated:

recoiloperated:

dreaming-c0rps3:

Who’s forcing you to work out?

I’ve just realized I misunderstood this post.

Yeah guys are cool but have you ever been a girl in love with a girl who isn’t sure if she likes girls so she just plays you along and has you as her own little “gay experiment” just to figure herself out and use you and then decides dating dudes is pretty simple so she leaves you for a guy and 5 years later you still think about her? HAHA yeah guys are cool.

Scientist discovered that I infact AM a piece of shit.

What’s a good anime that could possibly leave me in a depression coma?

aflairformisadventures:

Currents Convulsive - Pierce The Veil

So this is the first time I’m back on this app since 2016, who wants to start a friendship :v